Chapter Two
Lotor was trying to decide what course to set when he had heard Allura stirring in her bed. He checked to make sure autopilot was in order, and went in to check on her. It looked as though she was having a bad dream. Lotor reached over to try to wake her, when a moan escaped her lips - the same as last night when she was with his father. Half pleasure, half pain. Was she dreaming about his father? Lotor's fists balled up with hatred. His fears were confirmed a moment later when she cried out "Z'aale!....no..." - his father's birthname. So she was dreaming about him! he thought angrily. what did he do to her?
He looked again, and saw that she was awake, sitting up, with tears rolling down her cheeks. Immediately, concerned for her, he sat on the bed, wrapped his arms around her and held her.
"Allura...what's wrong? Please tell me. I don't want to see you cry." Lotor softly said.
Allura looked at him as if for the first time, her eyes filled with tears.
She spoke with a tremor in her voice. "Lotor?...What - Where am I?"
Lotor stroked back her hair and said, "We're on board my father's cruiser. I 'm trying to get our course plotted."
Allura looked puzzled. Then all of sudden, she remembered. Everything. Every detail. Lotor saw Allura's face crumple, Her hands,flew up to her face, her expression horrified. She started to cry - racking, painful cries of pain and memory. He didn't know what to do - he never really comforted anyone - least of all, a woman. Not knowing what else to do, he held her close, rocking her slightly. Allura leaned into his chest, still weeping. Lotor tightened his grip, wanting to give as much comfort as he could. He was at a loss for words.
Allura still weeping, looked at his face, and then she looked down and said, "I-I-I 'm so ashamed! I remember everything! Everything, Lotor!" she looked up, tears glistening in her eyes. "Do you know what it's like to be out of control? To not have any will?"
Lotor thought briefly of the day his mother was murdered-how he could not save her. How he had no choice but to do his father's bidding.
And now he's done this to Allura, too.I wish I had killed him! Lotor seethed inside. But then, he reflected- I am no better-I did the same to Romelle.
Looking at Allura, he saw she was still in distress, so he quietly said, "It will be all right, Allura, I promise.."
Allura's breath seemed to catch in her throat as she said, "No, I don't know that, Lotor." she started to cry again, as if a new memory intruded upon her mind. " Oh god, Lotor,the things he did, the things he said! I had no will of my own! I tried to fight it, but I-I couldn't! The worst part-the worst--p-part,"she started to shake in his arms, then she blurted, "is that I wanted him to!!! All I wanted was to do was please him! My father's murderer!"
She sobbed anew, soaking Lotor's shirt. Lotor's eyes flashed with hatred toward his father. He had hurt his Allura! Hurt her deeply. Once again, his father had hurt and destroyed the life of someone he loved and he could do nothing but sit here and listen to her pitious weeping. Well, he was going to do something about it! He would take her away with him! No Doom, no war, no Voltron Force to get in the way - and most of all, no Zarkon! The more he thought of it, the better it sounded. He would take her to his mother's world, to Aden- his world now. There, they would be alone, and maybe-just maybe he could win her love.
He looked down at her, and saw that she had calmed down. "Allura" he said tenderly,"are you all right?"
She nodded and looked at him,"No, not really, but-I remember you last night, I remember you came in-" a slight smile came to her face "and fell though the door!"
Lotor's face flushed - he had forgotten all about that! She raised her hand to his face and touched it gently. "Thank you for saving me, Lotor."
He said wryly, "You thanked me last night, Allura."
She blushed, remembering that she had kissed him- and liked it. All she could do was say, "I guess I did, didn't I?"
"And very nicely, too." Lotor remembered the way she felt in his arms, so soft and warm. All he had wanted to do was stay that way forever.
Allura shifted a little and said, "I better get up now."
Lotor recluctantly let her get up,and watched her appreciatively as she stretched her arms over her head, getting the kinks out of her muscles. She looked down and suddenly realized that she was still wearing the sheer nightdress from last night. Lotor could have sworn she had blushed all over, for she had a rosy glow.
Quickly, she grabbed the coverlet on the bed - nearly wiping Lotor out in the process, and covered her body with it.
She said almost meekly,"Lotor, is there anything to wear here besides this?"
He smiled-she did look so lovely in that- but she did need something more decent to wear to Aden.
"Look in the storage closet behind you." he said, refering to a paneled wall next to the doorway of a small lounge area.
Allura turned, intending to open the closet door when suddenly she dropped her "covering" and screamed, "KEITH!!"
Lotor thought, Oh hell! That's Hagar's "little suprise"- I should have known!! all he could do was make his way to where she was and curse Hagar under his breath.